Are You Really Awake To Life? (How To Stop “Sleepwalking” and Sneaky Negative Thoughts)

woman in pyjamas sleepwalking through a cafeteria to show lack of conscious living and mindfulness
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You’ve heard about people who can sleep with their eyes open? Amazing, right? What about people who sleepwalk and do activities such as brush their teeth or make a sandwich while they’re still asleep? Well…there’s another kind of sleep walking that’s more common, and more dangerous: Going through life unconsciously. Is this you?

I’m talking about that autopilot, dismissal of the present (while daydreaming of the future) or apathetic “I just wanna get through the day/week/month” type of sleepwalking.

And perhaps more dangerous – if used as an excuse for not using our own will and efforts – is a popular mantra “What is meant to be, will be”.

At times, I haven’t even been aware of living on autopilot. Now that I am, it’s a whole new world. (Thank you, Prem.)

The Urgency of Living Consciously

Average age of death in U.S.: 78.54 years. If you are lucky and live to be 80, you will have lived 29,200 days. How many days have you used up so far?

It’s time to wake up to the incredible gift and treasure that YOUR life is – each and every day!

How Are You Being? (BE before you DO)

People often ask “How are you doing?” That’s nice. Truly. But we focus so much on what we are doing and less on how we are feeling – how we are being.

Our inner lives ultimately reflect our outer lives. We think before we create.

What we put into the world – we get back. Ultimately, giving is getting.

Lara Palafox

A lot of advice is given on how to use our thoughts, and imagination on creating what we want to manifest materially in the world. Yet, if we don’t focus on our inner lives and being happy within, what good is all that we manifest materially?

If our being is happy, then our doing becomes a joyful reflection of that, and what we feel drawn to do and accomplish is driven by our hearts.

When we do what we truly love, work becomes play, we enjoy and become better at what we do, and material rewards will come to say “Thank you”.

What we put into the world – we get back. Ultimately, giving is getting…

What are you giving yourself?

Are You Conscious of Your Thoughts?

I love a bumper sticker I’ve seen on a car. It read: “Don’t believe everything you think.”

It’s a great reminder of how thoughts and ideas – are just that. Not absolute laws set in stone. Not necessarily the Truth.

Things come to mind based on so many variables in our experiences. And our experiences and observations are subjective and selective. And we believe what we think.

Being conscious of our thoughts means being aware of their transient nature and the fallibility of them.

It’s like being a passenger in a vehicle and only looking out the window on your side. What are we missing out on seeing from the window on the other side? Even if I turn my head to look out the other side, I’m now missing what was on my side. We just can’t see and know everything.

But what we DO know is that we have all of these thoughts in our heads, and we can decide what we choose to think. If our thoughts are limiting and don’t bring us a joyful life – we can get new ones! Try looking out of the other car window…

Why not think in a way that elevates your life and those around you?

Elevating Conscious Thoughts

The words in our heads are either loving or negative. What percentage of your “self-talk” is positive and what percentage is negative?

You may not even be aware of the amount of negative, limiting or counter-productive thoughts in your head every day.

Once you start observing your thoughts, don’t get stressed over trying to get rid of all of the negative thoughts – they are sneaky, and will creep in from time to time despite your best efforts. However, you can recognize the most pervasive negative thoughts and practice replacing them with postitive ones.

Example 1: “Oh, that was so dumb” Replace with: “Oh, that’s funny/interesting/different!”

Example 2: “I keep trying and I just can’t…” Replace with: “Ah, how strong of me to keep putting effort towards what I want. Let’s try a new approach.”

Example 3: “I hate (…) about myself.” Replace with: “I’m the most beautiful/excellent/amazing/perfect me there has ever been or ever will be.”

Another way to deal with a negative thought: Stand up to it! Remember, you’re the boss. Say “Hey! What are you doing in my head? You’re a negative thought and I’m only hiring positive ones. Sorry. Bye bye.”

What Is “Should”? (A Sneaky Saboteur)

I try to catch myself when I say things like “I should be doing this” or “I should be doing that”…

Why is “should” negative? Because it’s reprimanding yourself for things you’re not doing but think they are the “correct” things to do – according to your own intellectual reasoning or according to what you’ve been told by others.

The problem is that this creates a negative tension within you (a push to do something and at the same time a pull away from doing it). You’re fighting yourself internally.

Sometimes “should” can also be a placebo – a pill that has no intrinsic potency, but may psychologically dull your pain. (Or if you berate yourself, it could be akin to self-flagellation…but I digress.)

The trick is that you feel a little better by acknowledging that you know something that would be good/useful/prudent to do. The catch is that, at the same time, you’re not actually doing anything to produce a good/useful/prudent result.

The solution is to eliminate “should”.

First decide, being absolutely honest with yourself, if you really want to do a thing or not. If the answer is “Yes”, then look at what the obstacle is. Is it fear? A feeling of being overwhelmed or tired? Getting to the root of the issue means that you can now take steps to overcome it.

For example, you think: “I really should get to the gym” but you don’t go. Perhaps the issue is really that you feel you will be judged by others at the gym because you’re carrying some extra pounds.

Now, you can first decide if you really want to lose weight… Many people are actually quite happy with a few pounds more then the media says is attractive (if you need to lose pounds for health – that’s another issue). Don’t pressure yourself. Enjoy your choice!

However, if you do want to lose weight but feel shy going to the gym, think of ways to counteract that, so you can achieve what you want:

– You could go to a gym at off-peak hours.

– Start with exercise videos at home until you feel more comfortable and the urge to expand your exercise becomes greater than your fear of what you think people will think. (A lot of people will be thinking “Good for you!”)

– Or you could start with swim/aquatic classes so your body is submerged during the class (so you feel less exposed)

Capture This Negative Self-Talk And Make It Work For You

What to do when you hear yourself saying “I should…”?

Try saying this instead: “I want to…”

Next, decide how you will: “I will…”

Include “when”. Be specific, not “When I get a chance” (haha). It could be “When I get home tonight”, but a time or time frame is best: At 6 pm or from 6 pm to 7pm.

For those who balk at exact times (some people feel too constrained), you could try looking at a time not as something pinning you down but a date with an activity to empower you, and create a better experience in your life.

If there’s a task that seems daunting, remember that a meal is eaten one bite at a time. Do you sit down to a meal and focus on having a clean plate? Or do you sit down and look forward to enjoying each bite of it? It’s more fun (and better for digestion) to enjoy each bite. Be conscious of each step you take to achieve your goals. Squeeze out every little bit of joy you can find in them.

The same thing with any project/learning/studies/activity you want to do (not ”should” do”). Assign a specific time to take a bite out of that task. Remind yourself that you’re doing the task because you WANT to do it. Keep chipping away regularly and you’ll find that it gets done faster and more happily than expected.

This is how I wrote my first book. What seemed daunting, became a joy as each day I committed to writing a specific number of words – without trying to be perfect or focussing on how far I had to go. I found joy in those moments, in that day.

So we know we want to do something, does it matter why?


If why we’re doing something aligns with adding meaning, joy or love to our lives, then it’s a greater motivator than “Other people do it” or “I don’t know what else to do” etc. Why are you doing the things in life you’re doing?

Being conscious of what you’re doing and why you’re doing it, brings lucidity to your life.

When you become fully awake to life, you may have regrets. Regretting time wasted. Now, some people say you shouldn’t have regrets! Really? There’s that “should” word again! If you have regrets, acknowledge them.

Yes, don’t wallow in regret and waste precious time being miserable in the present. But if regret is seen as simple awareness of how you don’t want to be or don’t want to live your life then it’s actually a valuable insight and motivator.

You know, we do what we do for the reason we give ourselves at the time. When we gain new understanding, we make different choices.

You only know you have today, for sure.

Be awake to each moment of it.

This is a way to feel alive, take control, and bring in more joy!



Happy New Year 2020!

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Happy New Year! I’m Lara, and this is my first post on what I hope will be an amazing, fun, and inspiring website!

If you’d like to know more about me, please click on the “About” link above.

Let’s jump right in!!


Forget talk about “winning” at life. This is not a race or competition against anyone, not even yourself. You have already won life – you are here. Let’s take a minute to really think about what this means: You have been given a body, a mind, the ability to feel love and emotions, and the will to create endlessly. Whether you realize it or not, you have created who you are now. Every thought that has lead to a choice, action or inaction, has gotten you to where you are today. Do you like who you are? Are you happy with yourself and your life? Would you want to be best friends with you? Work for or with you? This isn’t about loving yourself – you are divinely loved, deserving of love, and have the ability to love yourself in a kind and unselfish way – this is about having the incredible gifts of life mentioned earlier and doing wonderful, creative, and meaningful things with it.

This website is all about being honest with yourself, and developing the skills to be who and what you truly want to be. Your life is up to you, no matter what your current situation is, what your background, culture or education is, or even what your physical or mental abilities are. No one is responsible for our lives but us. If you’re not happy with it, change it! Even those incarcerated have the power to change their experience of their lives. We live with our thoughts and inner experiences of the outer world 24/7. How we choose to think about things creates our experience. Nelson Mandela said (after sitting in a prison cell for 27 years) that the wardens could put four walls around his body but not his mind. His imagination and heart were free!

I hope that this 2020 year brings you a clear vision of who you are and what you want to be. You can then start doing what needs to be done. Don’t let the fear of being unable to do what you want to do, stop you from doing it. As long as what you want to, brings no intentional harm to others – go for it! Recognize the fear and decide to find a mentor, books, websites, classes (whatever you need) and start DOING.

Realize also, that doing doesn’t necessarily mean filling your life with frantic activities (you could end up feeling like a hamster in a wheel) – it could be simply scaling back on doing too much, refocusing on priorities and giving yourself breathing space.

My posts will draw upon my studies; decades of experience having a varied and colorful life; dealing with unusual and challenging family; international travel/work/living; voracious reading; research, and links to other resources (because no person knows everything!)…And hopefully, my posts will be entertaining too!

If you would like to receive a new post once a week (instead of trying to find the website again when you want to read more or find the great links!), just click on this “Subscribe” link or the one at the top of the page…

It is my sincere wish that this website and blog help you rock your life! May your year be full of love, laughter, useful learning, happy times, and wonderful, successful growth.


P.S. The first blog on self-mastery is already published! Check it out below, and let me know your thoughts or questions. Thank you!